My girl Julia B. Good posted this on a friend's FB wall today and although it's may be one of those generic poetic ramblings about unrealistic love, at the same time I thought it was kind of sweet. So I thought, why not share it...

A girl asked a boy if she was pretty. 
He said no.  

She asked him if he wanted to be with her forever. 
He said no. 

She then asked him if he would cry if she walked away. 
He again said no.  

She had heard too much. 
She needed to leave. 

As she walked away, 
he grabbed her arm and told her to stay.

He said...

"You're not pretty, you're beautiful. 
I don't want to be with you forever, I need to be with you forever. 
I wouldn't cry if you walked away, I would die."



From time to time I Google my name to see what links show up. After sorting through my findings, to make sure nothing too inappropriate is accessible to those outside my circle of friends, I go to the sites that have made my info public and I either erase whatever they have on me, or I make the info private. Then I Google once more, using my email addresses and usernames and again change setting or erase info.

Today (and I don't know how I didn't find this before), I found my old Friendster profile. Perfectly intact and untouched since 2003, I felt as if I had discovered some rare gem, a little piece of the past, a personal time capsule. 

Sometimes I feel as though I haven't changed over the last 10 years. Sometimes I wonder if I've matured at all, if I've grown in to a better person and advanced in life. But, when I find things like this 7 year old profile and I read how I interpreted myself and my life back then...I realize I have come so so far. This is exactly what I needed today, by the way, to get me motivated and moving in the right direction. 

Annnnnd for shits and giggles, I decided to copy and paste my profile here before I go to town on that baby and delete it foreverrr...


Interested In: Just looking around  

Member Since: Dec 2003 

Hometown: Evanston, IL  

Company: ICODA. CHASI.  

College/University: Columbia College, Attended 2001 - 2005, Class of 2005, Bachelor's Degree, Magazine Journalism 
University of Iowa, Attended 2000 - 2001, Other  

Occupation: Teacher/Tutor  

Zodiac Sign: Gemini  

About Me: If you want to know something, just ask...

January in Omaha.


The title says it all. All I want to know is where all her keys go! Can't wait to wash the dishes and the kitchen tomorrow...as usual. Ugh.

EDU NEWS: S.O.S aka "Save Our Schools"

My cousin Zak recently found me on FB. 

One of his first posts..."anyone know that kids in hawaii are only going to school 9 out of every 10 school days? Support teachers not furloughs!"

I commented..."i heard about this. unreal! my dreams of teaching on maui may have to be put on the backburner. i mean, as if the school systems in hawaii don't suuuuuck already. ugh."

When I clicked on the picture above, it led me to a page for..."S.O.S. Save Our Schools! Hawaii's educational system is in need of change! Parents unite to make a difference! No mandatory furloughs! No Layoffs! We want a "hands-Off Policy" when it comes to our children's educational funds!"

Which then led me this article from the Hawaii Reporter...

Hawaii Department of Education - Cutting Necessary Services Before Cutting the Fat
By Malcolm Kirkpatrick, 11/17/2009 9:04:45 AM

When any bureaucracy faces a budget cut, it typically cuts services before it cuts fat. When a bureaucracy cuts services, it enlists the public as an ally in defence of its budget.
Further, the high-paid, do-nothing jobs in a bureaucracy typically go to politically-connected insiders, who can best defend their positions. Furlough Friday has Hawaii parents scrambling for day-care and screaming for higher taxes. Unasked and unanswered is the question: "How much money is enough?"

Raw statistics on the Hawaii DOE budget appear with suspicious infrequency in the print and broadcast news media. Although politicians and DOE administrators make self-serving and deceptive statements which few journalists question, one source, the DOE accounting branch, files with the Federal government an official financial summary, the Public Education Finance Survey, which carries a penalty for false reporting.
Hawaii DOE total revenues, fiscal year 2006-2007
Hawaii DOE, current expenditures
Hawaii DOE revenues and expenditures, fiscal year 2006-2007:
c=Total revenues = $2,985,593,000.
d=Current expenditures = $2, 061, 560,000.
e=Enrollment, 2006-2007. 180,728

Since 1970, DOE per pupil expenditures have more than doubled, in inflation-adjusted dollars.
Hawaii DOE current expenditures per pupil, 1969-70 to 2005-06:
$4,280 to $10,131 (inflation-adjusted dollars)

No country on Earth spends more, per pupil, than Hawaii's $11,000.
International comparison and US average:
#1 Switzerland ($9,348.00). #3 USA ($7,764.00).

It does not take 12 years at $11,000 per pupil-year to teach a normal child to read and compute. Most vocational training occurs more effectively on the job than in a classroom. State (government, generally) provision of History and Civics instruction is a threat to democracy, just as State operation of newspapers would be (is, in totalitarian countries).

Neither George Washington, Thomas Jefferson, nor James Madison attended a government-operated school. Cyrus McCormick and Thomas Edison were homeschooled. The Wright brothers were high school dropouts.

"Consider what we do to our kids. Is it really a good idea to send your 6-year-old into a room full of 6-year-olds, and then, the next year, to put your 7-year-old in with 7-year-olds, and so on? A simple recursive argument suggests this exposes them to a real danger of all growing up with the minds of 6-year-olds. And, so far as I can see, that's exactly what happens. Our present culture may be largely shaped by this strange idea of isolating children's thought from adult thought. Perhaps the way our culture educates its children better explains why most of us come out as dumb as they do, than it explains how some of us come out as smart as they do."--Marvin Minsky

Why is $11,000 per pupil-year insufficient? Is there any amount of money so great that the out-of-classroom parasites who infest the DOE bureaucracy cannot waste it?

Across industriies, across countries, State-monopoly enterprises deliver wretched services at high cost. In abstract, the education industry is an unlikely candidate for State (government, generally) operation. The education industry is not a natural monopoly. Beyond a very low level, there are no economies of scale at the delivery end of the education business as it currently operates. Education only marginally qualifies as a public good as economists use the term and the "public goods" argument implies subsidy and regulation, at most, not State (government, generally) operation of an industry.

Gerard Lassibile and Lucia Navarro Gomez, "Organization and Efficiency of Educational Systems: some empirical findings" - Comparative Education, Vol. 36 #1, 2000, Feb. , pg. 16,

"Furthermore, the regression results indicate that countries where private education is more widespread perform significantly better than countries where it is more limited. The result showing the private sector to be more efficient is similar to those found in other contexts with individual data (see, for example, Psucharopoulos, 1987; Jiminez, et. al, 1991). This finding should convince countries to reconsider policies that reduce the role of the private sector in the field of education".

Current policy in Hawaii and most other US States restricts parents' options for the use of the taxpayers' K-12 education subsidy to schools operated by State (government, generally) employees. This policy originated in anti-Catholic bigotry and survives on dedicated lobbying by current recipients of the Hawaii taxpayers' $2.9 billion/year (US, $500 billion+) K-12 education subsidy.

The "public" school system has become an employment program for dues-paying members of public-sector unions, a source of padded construction and supply contracts for politically-connected insiders, and a venue for State-worshipful indoctrination.

If this is not so, why cannot any child take, at any age, an exit exam (the GED will do) and apply the taxpayers' age 6-18 education subsidy toward post secondary tuition or toward a wage subsidy at any qualified (say, has filed W-2 forms on at least three adult employees for at least the previous foyr years) private-sector employer?

Malcolm Kirkpatrick is a Hawaii teacher who has devoted over a decade to investigating the DOE's management and financial practices. He blogs at http://harriettubmanagenda.blogspot.com/ Reach him at mailto:malcolmkirkpatrick@yahoo.com

Hawaii Education Beat...
© 2010 Hawaii Reporter, Inc.

i will dance TEKTONIK in the streets of paris.


jb, me, cal, ryan, jade (and hopefully matt, t and jenna) are going on a psychedelic adventure. 

you should too...




"If you press me to say why I loved him, I can say no more than it was because he was he and I was I."  
- Unknown 

"We all want to fall in love. Why? Because that experience makes us feel completely alive. Where every sense is heightened, every emotion is magnified, our everyday reality is shattered and we are flying into the heavens. It may only last a moment, and hour, an afternoon. But that doesn't diminish its value. Because we are left with memories that we treasure for the rest of our lives."
- Unknown

"For all sad words of tongue and pen, the saddest are those 'It might have been.'"
- John Greenleaf Whittier 

"Well, it seems to me that the best relationships--the ones that last-- are frequently the ones that are rooted in friendship. You know, one day you look at the person and you see something more than you did the night before. Like a switch has been flicked somewhere. And the person who was just a friend is...suddenly the only person you can ever imagine yourself with."
- Dana Scully (The X-Files)

"Love is a fruit in season at all times, and within reach of every hand."
- Mother Teresa

"Love is not what we become, but what we already are."
- Stephen Levine 

"Love is the extremely difficult realization that something other than oneself is real."
- Iris Murdoch 

" If love is a sin, punish me by kisses. And if love is a crime, I wanna be your victim."
- Julie 

"Love doesn't sit there, like a stone, it has to be made, like bread: re-made all the time, made new."
- Ursula K. LeGuin

"Somewhere there's someone who dreams of your smile, And finds in your presence that life is worth while, So when you are lonely, remember it's true: Somebody, somewhere is thinking of you."
- Unknown

"There is one pain, I often feel, which you will never know. It's caused by the absence of you."
- Ashleigh Brilliant

"In the arithmetic of love, one plus one equals everything, and two minus one equals nothing."
- Mignon McLaughlin 

"Beauty is not in the face; beauty is a light in the heart."
- Kahlil Gibran

"The first duty of love is to listen."
- Unknown

"The longest journey a man must take is the eighteen inches from his head to his heart."
- Unknown

"It is never too late to fall in love."
- Anonymous

"Respect is love in plain clothes."
- Unknown

"Love is most nearly itself When here and now cease to matter."
- T.S. Eliot

"A legal kiss is never as good as a stolen one."
- Guy de Maupassant 

"I'm so afraid to feel nothing so I feel everything."
- Unknown

"It's not that I can't live without you...it's just that I don't even want to try."
- Unknown

"Love is not blind - it sees more, not less. But because it sees more, it is willing to see less."
- Julius Gordon

"Love is when the woman of your dreams becomes a reality and sleep stops being a priority."
- Unknown

"For hearing my thoughts, understanding my dreams and being my best friend... For filling my life with joy and loving me without end...I do."
- Unknown 

"True love comes quietly without banners or flashing lights. If you hear bells, get your ears checked."
- Unknown  

"Countless words, nor countless actions could ever define my feelings for you. True love defies definition."
- Unknown 

"Love that remains longest in your heart is the one that is not returned."
- Unknown

"If our love is only a will to possess, it is not love."
- Thich Nhat Hanh

"Things we do, we do for ourselves. But that which we love we have no choice but to give away."
- Edmond Medina

"Nothing spoils the taste of peanut butter like unrequited love."
- Charlie Brown

"Thank you for nothing."
- Miguel de Cervantes

"All for love, and nothing for reward."
- Edmund Spenser

"What's meant to be will always find a way."
- Trisha Yearwood 

"And love can come to everyone, the best things in life are free."
- Lew Brown & Buddy De Sylva

"A part of you has grown in me. And so you see, it's you and me together forever and never apart, maybe in distance, but never in heart."
- Unknown 

"The heart has it's reasons that reason does not know."
- Pascal

"The magic of first love is our ignorance that it can never end."
- Disraeli

"To love is to admire with the heart; to admire is to love with the mind."
- Theophile Gautier 

"Let your heart guide you...but listen closely because it whispers" - Land Before Time

"It is better to have loved and lost then to have never loved at all."
- Alfred, Lord Tennyson, In Memoriam 

"Love is friendship, friendship is love. If love fails, friendship should remain. For friendship is the foundation of love"
- Unknown 

"You don't get to choose, you just fall."
- Unknown

"But true love is a durable fire, In the mind ever burning, Never sick, never old, never dead, From itself never turning."
- Unknown

"The secret of love is seeking variety in your life together, and never letting routine chords dull the melody of your romance."
- Unknown

"Love is but the discovery of ourselves in others, and the delight in the recognition."
- Alexander Smith

"There is no disguise which can hide love for long where it exists, or simulate it where it does not."
-La Rochefoucauld

"A very small degree of hope is sufficient to cause the birth of love."
- Stendhal  

"Love is . . . born with the pleasure of looking at each other, it is fed with the necessity of seeing each other, it is concluded with the impossibility of separation."
- Unknown 

"What is a kiss? Why this, as some approve: The sure, sweet cement, glue, and lime of love."
- Robert Herrick

"To be loved, be lovable."
- Unknown

"Love comforteth like sunshine after rain."
- Shakespeare

"Truly loving another means letting go of all expectations. It means full acceptance, even celebration of another's personhood."
- Karen Casey

"Love is temporary...but friends are forever."
- Kelly Wheeler

"An immature love says I love you because I need you, but a mature love says I need you because I love you."
- Unknown




An avoidance of true communication is tantamount to a relinquishment of my self-being; 
if I withdraw from it I am betraying not only the other but myself.  

Karl Jaspers





give me freedom,
love and grace
ill give up speed
for a slower pace.


you say
you like my smile.

so baby,
why not stay a while?


still believe,
there is one true.

so i wait,
in vain for you. 


sequin (plural sequins) 

pronunciation: \ˈsē-kwən\ 
function: noun 
etymology: French, from Italian zecchino, from zecca mint, from Arabic (dār al-) sikka, literally, house of the minting die

1 : an old gold coin of Italy and Turkey
2 : a small plate of shining metal or plastic used for ornamentation especially on clothing


In her own words, Pauline Weston Thomas for Fashion-Era.com...This page reviews how spangles, jewels and sequins give dresses a glitzy, stylish look, which will make you the star attraction at any party. 

Follow the links below to find out more. There are A LOT of great pictures that go along with each look as well. Here's a small taste of what you'll find...



About The Pinup Shop...The Pinup Shop is for pinup art lovers. A Cafepress shop that showcases my girlie art, which is for sale on all 97 different items. I have only just begun, but soon there will be many beautiful faces to grace this site (to get updated on that, feel free to subscribe to The Pinup Shop Newsletter, located on the sidebar). But this is just the tip of the ice burg. Incorporating The Pinup Blog, I would like to make this a real hobbyist's lounge.

About Tali Shapiro...I'm a 25 year-old freelance artist and writer and a lover of pinups and retro American culture. Drawing pinups is one of my many dreams and this project is a dream-come-true for me. I’ve always loved to draw sexy women, and a pinup seemed to appear in everything I did. So I guess a pinup-centered project was only a matter of time. For my non-pinup art, check out my profile at Imagekind.

Check it... http://www.thepinupblog.com/


About a month ago I decided that I would dress up as the character Penelope Cruz played in the movie Blow, a.k.a. Mirtha Jung. Today I started looking for ideas and was surprised to find that there are hardly any picture (stills) of her on the web. I literally searched for hours. So, now I am going to have to watch the movie for outfit inspiration and then compile the elements of her costume one-by-one.

I was searching for 70's hairstyles and found this picture, which I think is a pretty right-on on do - similar to Penelope's style in the movie. More to come...



A surprisingly enjoyable read...and it's more then just fashion. 

Check it...http://blog.freepeople.com 

In their own words...Building 15 is where the magic of Free People happens. In the Navy Yard on the edge of Philadelphia a cluster of renovated warehouses sit alongside the Delaware River, and in one of them a group of young, fashionable, creative people – mostly women – delve into the details of living the life of the Free People girl. We sort through fabric swatches, take photo shoots, share ideas, video, art, food and culture, and travel the world in search of inspiration to create fashion that reflects our creative, independent, impressively-bold and free-spirited FP girl.

The BLDG 15 Blog is a way for us to open the doors of our home to let you peek inside, come in, and hang out for a while. We wanted to create a place that merged our worlds and offered insight into the illuminating culture of Free People. We hope that this blog inspires you to embark on creative, fun, enlightened, and fashionable adventures each day, and that you return again to share your experiences with the us.


In their own words... 

California Select is a new project from American Apparel. Our tastemakers collect unique and inspirational styles from all over the world so we can offer them to you, our stylish customer, on Ebay and in select American Apparel retail stores. Visit us online and in-store often as we constantly add new one-of-a-kind gems to our collection.

For more info... http://store.americanapparel.net/caliselect.html

Check it the EBay store... http://stores.ebay.com/California-Select?_rdc=1




SEEK AND YOU SHALL FIND...Inspirational steez, simple, yet eyecatching photos and links.

THE DEETS...Established in 2007, Copenhagen Street Style has made a name for itself among some of the most coveted fashion and style-centered blogs on the web and developed quite a fashionista-following over that last few years. It may have the same aim as other streetstyle-centered blogs on the web: to contribute to the rapidly-growing movement of streetstyle-centered blogs that aim to capture the essence of and tell the story a city and it's people through the clothes those people wear. However, there is a simplicity about the blog itself - as well as the author's tasteful, yet edgy, eye for spotting a wide range of unique, seen-on-the-street looks, styled by real women - that put it a step above the rest.

THE BEST PART...Do not navigate away from this bog without taking the time to peruse the many looks featured in the "Seen on the Street" section. I find that most of the looks posted here feature women wearing outfits that I, a clothing-whore, fashion-obsessed, artista, have the ability to recreate, which sets this blog apart from the others that tend to feature items and looks that are not wearable or affordable.