Today has left me feeling used; used by a friend, and used by the boy and the man that I love. I have come to the conclusion that my distrust in relationships stems from the fact that I allow people to come and go from my life as they please. In and out, in and out. They come when they need me and the kind of love that only I can make them feel. And they leave when they have sucked me dry, and have all they need to sustain themselves...until they feel empty and come back to fill up on me again.